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RAMBLINGS
Friday, April 27, 2007
Haven't really been blogging for such a long time.
I don't even know what have i been up to lately..
Where did all my time go to?
I even stopped playing my games..
Now reflecting abit about what Regina had said today regarding the new environment..
I believed the same fear strucked me too. Who isn't afraid of being outcast? Especially joining a class that the people had been together for a year already, being so close in terms of relationship, and deep in their minds, to make friends with us or not is not important at all, why? the answer is simple, because they already are in their cliques/groups. So is it really fair that it sounds like we're so despo to wanna make friends with them?
This Ngee Ann Poly system is really, illogical and ridiculous.
I even swear i wanna make this thing into a headline.
However, to say the truth, i don't really mind being outcast. Just that, to see my close friend so sian, that she also has abit of difficulty in making friends with the other girls too.
Then again... oh well, i should really save my breath for now. What's the point of saying all these, when it comes down to nothing?
The feeling of helpless... once more...
Once more, an incident triggered me like 2 days back.. I'm feeling so useless..
This is what happened.
I was walking on my way back home(knowing my observations for surrounding is pretty strong) I saw an old lady somehow keep her notes and coins or something. By observing a few things, that the coin dropped into the drain, and (i think i saw a 5 dollar note on the floor, because i could roughly make out that it is green color)
So guess what? just 10 metres away is an old man, i kind of assume that he is the old lady's husband. So the old lady wanted to pick up the coin in the drain, i wanted to help her but anyways i was urgent for toilet and i just went on ahead when i saw the old man was gonna help her.
But GUESS WTF HAPPENED?
I turn my head while slowing down my pace, the old lady gave some posture(as if she shrugs) and just walked away. AND THEN THAT OLD MAN JUST STEPPED ON THE 5 DOLLAR NOTE, PRETEND TO LOOK AROUND, WAIT TIL THE OLD LADY HAS WALKED AFAR, AND HE PICKED UP THE NOTE AND POCKETED IT.
I WAS SHOCKED.
WHAT?! HE ISN'T SOMEONE OF THE OLD LADY'S RELATION?
THAT MAKES HIM A THIEF?
I was totally helpless, i really don't know what to do? The old lady went so far already.. and the old man has the note in his pocket too.. If it takes all for him to deny the fact that the note isn't his, i can't do a shit either..
Wow.. I know i could've done something given my personality and character..
but wtf happened? i don't really know, my heart just tells me to move on.. To not care about others but only myself..
-Have i gotten so tired that nothing matters to me anymore?
Delivered at 11:02 PM;
