Sunday, November 26, 2006
feeling very sick.
not illness. but rather inside this heart.
almost incurable.
sometimes lonely.
don't know why tears flow with no reason.
don't understand what i want.
how i wished i can pass time
by walking under the rain.
by watching the rain.
by looking at the sky.
by gazing at the stars.
*hugs to myself* i'm fine now. ((:
Thinking, trying to understand.
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006
ROAR!!!
I HATE MUD.
haix.
what a day with mud.
first it was after my cats on my way to underpass. and.
WTF. damn mud spilled on my shoes. that was nothing compared to end of the day.
so it was like 9pm and it was alighting at great world bustop as usual.
WTF. I TOTALLY SLIDE. OOPS! THE GREAT THING WAS I DIDN'T FALL.
BUT MY SHOES HAD MUD OMG.
well well, enough whinning.
gotta wash my shoes when i chong liang later.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
what are we, when we have nothing left?
Sunday, November 19, 2006
S o
B o r e d.
Just came back from shopping with ryan dr guang.
Went to shop at ngee ann city the whole day.
BUT
no one bought anything.
ahahas.
i would have seriously gotten that zara shirt if it fits me. ):
im too skinny.
how do i gained weight?!?
i eat alot. but i gain nothing.
arghh! this world is so unfair!
some are dying to lose weight!
but im dying to GAIN weight!!!
sigh.
so bored.
and feeling sooooooo loneeeeelyyyy.
damn feeling i hate it.
must be x'mas drawing near~
))):
Saturday, November 18, 2006
I wished that i could sleep forever~
nice hor? this song.
it's called fragments of memories from Final Fantasy VIII(8).
the journey in life is so arduous, i need a loooooooooooooooooong sleep.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
just so.... i missed old times all a sudden...
no, not her.... but old school days...
old times...
sigh.
hate this feeling.
go away.
i don't feel like growing up!
neither do i want to pass time.
i cannot accept death of my loved ones.
why can't things be like a dream?
trapped in forever.
lasts eternity.
im such a failure.
such immature thinking.
times i felt like dying.
because one person changed my life so much.
go away.
i am strong.
and won't be defeated by you again.
i
hate
you
.
Random Quote: And 0 left?
Waaaaaaaaa.........
omg...
i missed my bus stop on my way home from sch todae!
luckily stopped at outram. still gotta take mrt 1 stop back.
argh! so embarassing.
my legs feel so weak when i woke up. den dunno y?
arrrrrghh!! super embarassing lahs.
met mrs dass(eng teacher) from my sec sch somewhere near void deck...
exchange a few words then goodbyes.
hahas, forgot to get email from her because i write poems and there are questions(english) i would like to ask her.
hmmms... anyone out there good in english? i know one and she's gone forever..
Delivered at 10:52 PM;
ARRRRRRRRGHHHHH!!!!!!
I LOST MY VOICE!!!!!!!
YES ITS 2.40AM NOW. HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~
Delivered at 2:48 AM;
Monday, November 13, 2006
ARGH!!!
S-A-D. SAD.
'CUZ MY BAG GOT SCRATCHED.
hahas. just noticed it and blogging at my BCA workshop now!
)))))):
Friday, November 10, 2006
November Rain!~
Wooo. todae the first tym i feel so sleepy in tutorial class~
keep on having head on the table.(lying down?) ahahas.
anyway, we then had a little session with our tutor. he was to find out about us.
so he questioned things like was BIT our first choice etc... which sec sch.... parents' job..
ohhs... here's something interesting... my first choice being ACC at NP... and 15 pts i couldn't get IN. hahas, is it a blessing in disguise? for some of my friends are suffering in ACC. ( I WON'T NAME! HAHA)
and guess what? (what?) my BIT is the........ 7TH CHOICE!
wooo~ and i still get into the course.... apparently they wanted a genious like mi.. =P
fate brought me and my friends together!
hehs... raining hard today...
i love rain! (not the artist... but the weather)
seriously... i find it so sweet/romantic to walk under the rain...
i don't know.. but i just like it... whether being alone...
or even better.. with someone SPECIAL! (i love?)
even more...
hugs and kisses under the rain....
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Todae lessons are SUPER boring.
zomg.
IS is really getting bore bored boring!
hahas.
after IS met up with BCA grp mates and work on project. But nth much actually.
then went on with my weekly routine study with vin at 6.
OHH. plus my phone couldn't call out todae. T . T
wondered why. the bills are payed though. =/
hahas, as usual. the smuggling of sandwiches and bubble tea all the way up!~ =P
hehs. timid vin. alwaes so hidious about eating the illegal sandwiches! LOL.
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
IM SICK!!!
Finally... haven't fell sick for so long already.
Just measured my temperature. 37.6.
took a panadol, and hopefully it subsides this pain.
hahas, i just woke up at 1pm, found myself aching all over.
Argh! i hate this feeling. somemore i have no sch todae.. i wanna enjoy!~
but stupid pain, i can't concentrate in w/e things i do.
don't even have mood to do anything else.
hehs. must b all the sweets and chocolates i gobbled down.. tt y im sick!
get well soon... )):
But those days are gone now
Changed like a leaf on a tree
Blown away forever Into the cool autumn breeze
The snow has now fallen
And my sun's not so bright
I struggle to hold on
With the last of my might
Delivered at 2:25 AM;
yay!~
long day today!
firstly, did bca pbl project at atrium after sch today.
spent like 2 hours figuring what to do. by right it should be easy. but, but, just so that our language and analysis of question is too LOUSY!
anyway glad to finish it like 40% of it already.
went to library at 3+ and continue with MORE projects. IS!
okies, and we wasted more time as USUAL. HAHA
somewhat until like 5 we only had a topic settled and some other questions.
can't believe how efficient we are huh? =P
hahas, yay, we eat and sat to about 6 and went for the piano club cca thingy.
i was actually expecting MORE ppl in the club...... (because previously i was in SCC, and guess what? the numbers are really overwhelming! o_0)
oh well, i didn't really question about their club. like intakes, how long it started, and how successful etc...
reason what i go there? because i wanna learn piano. and why so? don't forget, my dream is being a musician. all my life im depending on music, living day by day. i hop on guitar ard 2 years ago and prolly its still one of the things to keep me going in life.
another part of reason is because i wanna learn the theory. if i can learn some theory off piano i could easily apply to other stuffs like guitar. (they're all the same notes, tow kay? which i hated)
there are so many piano pieces waiting for me to learn.
one such example is this one on my blog! it's so beautiful... don't you think so too?
not sure if i can commit. tho im not the type who gives up. see how lo..
first lesson so far its pretty boring... not saying basics are boring... but perhaps the way they taught things are too repeative and un-innovative.
just thinking... if i join this... then why did i quit SCC? (i didn't but nv go... hahas)
SCC can play guitar drums piano. much more to my liking.
hmmms.........................
Delivered at 1:56 AM;
Monday, November 06, 2006
Part 2 continue.
wahahas. So after 'chilling'~ at starbucks. We went to the movies.
hahas. at first i have no single clue about what is death note. some ppl are just so spoiler (lyk yg) cuz he read the comics before he came.
hahas. and then yg again. he made us sit at the wrong place! we got chased by other ppl. hahahaha.
anw during the movie ryan fell asleep. (yeah the intro is abit boring and scattered)
but its still kool~ (ryan still sae wan watch convanent at first, and then ended up being so excited after watching the trailer for part 2)
i totally find this whole story new to me. also kinda ingenious to come up with such story?
on surface seemed flawless, but im sure someone will outsmart the director somehow.
OH yeah. if you're watching death note and reading this. STAY after the movie has ended.
you get to see the trailer of death note 2 sequence after the BORING credits.
moving on, we walked all the way from cineleisure to peninsula plaza!
hahas, played lan there for nearly 2-3 hours i guess.
we played some lame maps on wc. and then somehow we all began to challenge NFS!
wooooooo~
hahas, indeed it was fun. (first tym ownage by ryan)
all the way to like 8am in the morning. walk from city link to MS and had MAC breakfast.
can't wait to get the breakfast done and faster go home SLEEP!
wahahas. stupid Si fei zhu~ so early wake up.
wake up = da fei mao sleep. =P
anyway that's pretty much our first outing and TONING outside. HAHA.
look forward to our next one but no TONING anymore!
wooooooooot~ that's pretty much for the whole day/night!
im finally done blogging with it. tho somehow wordy. hahas. but i think it's only polite to note it down for its our FIRST outing.
w00t.
spend the whole sat out on town.
hehs, 4 guys, mi dr ryan and yg.
first we gathered at topman. den went ard to begin our shopping. wahahas...
kk boring parts. went about many shops. gt zara, Harley davidson, polo ralph laurens.. nike.. hmms.. what else.. can't think of it..
hahas, yg bought his shirt from zara. LOL! he was almost too impulsive on buyin the plain shirt. cuz basically you could get any nice plain shirts around at a lower price... hahas..
den we saw the subaru car challenge thingy outside. wahahas, we all sae we gt gd endurance... but practically, when it comes to the real thing, i don't think we can really last as long as we think we would.
mehs, then it was like around 6+. we made our way to pacific plaza... wahahas.. 'cuz i wanna shop stussy!
hahas, but so suay bong~ stussy shop, but nv sell nice stussy shirt. wahahas. ok there's a nice white one dr found. bt apart from that, all of them are like shits!! or i think the good ones already sold out, wahahas..
so we roam inside the surf building all around into shops like rip curl, quiksilver, mambo, fossil... hahas but none of us made the purchase! too bad~ ryan almost bought the quiksilver bucker. wahahas.. but he said 'i think i can find a better one out there' HAHA. then he forever no nid buy liao. =X
hehs, then we left for ps to buy the movie tix. we went ard to c wat to eat... suddenly yg wan go flash n splash... so we all go c c lo... woo!~ hahas.. nice man.. i bought 2 nice stussy shirts...
got 1 just nice L size for me... the other one no more L. omg! but lucky i still can wear XL. muahahas. tall has its advantage. =P
anyway i was trying out my shirts in the fitting room.
HERE COMES THE TOPIC OF THE DAY
haha... i was trying inside, dr as usual doin lame stuffs. he knocked on the door and said '(ex)cuse mi sir' LOL!
and then there was a moment of silence.
so i went out.. LOLOL!!!
dr shirt was wet. took me awhile to get the picture.
what actually happened is tt.. as dr speak, yg was gupping down a few mouthful of green-tea. he couldn't take the joke. LOL. he spat out the whole green-tea.
LOLLERBLADE.
HAHA. i made my purchase at the counter and dr bought a shirt for some reason.
which is.... TO CHANGE!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
ok lahs, at least 3 of us didn't (go home?) empty-handed.
okies, had dinner at yoshinoya.
then went grand cathay to see if there's tix for death note.
hahas, but how unfortunate. there isn't.
so we decided to go hmm. cineleisure. took a bus down.(nt sure if we did?)
hahas, bought our tix at about 10.30pm. movie shows at 2.30. we had like 4 hours to spend!
first we stopped off at top floor to play pool. there isn't space but i still think its meaningful 'cuz we spent our time lookin at (girls?) and 2 pro players challenging!
hahas. their match is so exciting. even ppl lyk us who sit and watch find it so, can you imagine being in the match as the player itself?
hahas, theres this guy who looked pretty much well-build. ryan says he should go for body builder instead. hahahas. but he alot fancy pattern lahs... jump ball... curl ball etc...
hahas.. its very good experience for me to watch...
ok next stop we dropped off at starbucks.. to chill~
bought mocha large and sat at sofa!
hahas.. we talked alot of things... from personal.. to creepy stories... and down right to lame jokes. (which yg specialise in? HAHA)
stupid helicopter lame joke by yg.... hahas... but its a great entertainment!
hahas, creepy stories are really creepy.... even go toilet alone u oso will scared 1... =X
yg seemed to be very brave.. wahahas... i still can't believe his words.
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Thursday, November 02, 2006
OOHHHH..
damn diao..
just returned from lot 1 (CCK?)..
i took 961 back....
so im so shaggggg... i got a seat at right side... can lean window n slp....
wah lan....... den i slp so long, suddenly got ppl leaning towards mi...
i just realised gt another sleeper beside me... somemore is a girl 1...
OMG. LOL. i felt so uncomfortable... faster shift as much to the side as much as possible..
hahas... lucky just a few more stops then i quickly got off ler... zzzz...
just can't stand ppl slp until lyk dat... hahas... i just feel everyone should have the mindset of not sleep until lyk nth happen then lean on ppl...
sians 1/2.
i haven't been blogging for so long. don't really know what am i doing. haix. sum1 save mi?
hahas, anyway stayed up at library again (2nd tym) wif vin and finish up macro TT. (at least something archieving) bought sandwiches, smuggled up to 5th floor. bought bubble tea and did the same too.
hehs, abit bad todae. we go book room and force ppl out. =x
hahas, just finished poa quiz. a couple of things left to do... zomg. so stressed. but at least i did my work. LOL. speaking of me.. no one believes in me doing tutorial...
oh well... as long as i know i did..(but i also can't believe myself? lol?)
but it's a good thing lahs.. stayed up and finish up tutorials... i know i won't do them when i get home once im glued to the computer sit.
imagine last sem i just skip every tutorials.... but lucky i still did above average...
ok time to do poa TT. then hopefully touch my guitar... =/
so long nv touch my lao po... hehs... and stupid jamming... can we ever get into the competition?
i guess the band is pretty much gonna split up soon... zzz.... the competition is on sat... and we haven't even make a single practice jam yet.. when will my dreams come true?
i want to play music for music.... i love music... i love my guitar... when do i get to perform?
haix.... do i really have to give up this dream? for... almost every other guitarist out there are typical like me.... i dun haf talent neither skills... and what's more.. there could be better guitarist out there... i don't know what to say.... just feeling so... (given up?)
oh well time for work...
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