Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Hoho, so bored in the middle of the night... so came up with...
WANNA-BUY LIST! =PP
PSP
PS2
PS3
Keyboard
Organ
Synthsizer
Guitars
-6 string
-7 string
-12 string
Amplifiers
-Marshall?
Effects
-Phaser
-Delay
-Wah
-Whammy
-DS1 (Made in Japan)
-Flanger
Shirts
Bags
Berms
Handphone
Fossil Watch
Mini toons towels =x
That's all i guess.. must be thinking im mad right? but of course, there are things i can live without.. i guess the top piriorities are mainly my guitar gears, which i'd be getting ALL of them during june. 100% as music is my passion and life.
Sunday, January 21, 2007
celebrated mc bday and just came home..
hmms joined the group with sj and yw at about 9+ at city hall
hmms den took bus to clark quay's conniseur coffee? shit.. i can't rmb.. whether its that or coffee club.. =(
waited damn long for the sits..
finally found sits and we took a long while to settle because we waited while sitting just to change better sits -.-
changed sits.. finally settled down..
haven't had a great talk with everyone since a very long time
i had muddy mud pie which is an extreme delight! wahahaha...
it's erm... some extreme chocolate pie... and i never regret spending 6.50 for it!
too bad the drink was such a let-down... otherwise my chilling there would be perfect~
oh well, everyone has their first... won't call the same drink the next time again! =P
(anyway, my drink was not the worse. i heard the girls said like their coffee smell like some bygone, [ya know? the one used for hmm.. cockroach?!?])
yucks.. can you drink that stuff anyway? hahaha..
took cab at about 1+
shared with mc and michelle
kinda disappointed because i thought we'd chill til abit later..
well, the night is still early considering its only 1+
Saturday, January 20, 2007
A little poem for the day
These words are mistakes –
Leaves that never should have fallen:
They litter the ground; Crimson,
The colour of rage.
These words echo spite and malice.
Unintentional – they cause the most pain:
The words no one choose to say.
Sprawling, a stain across the page
These words fall like rain:
Effortlessly, it seems – off the tongue.
Falling,
Again and again
Friday, January 19, 2007
Your love still lingers...
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
When the candles of my world unlit
When the darkest corner i hid
When troubles were too much i fleet
When the darkest path i heed
When the devil takes lead
When life mislead
When my life is incomplete
When i couldn't eat
When i couldn't sleep
When sadness breed
When my tears to dry they bleed
When i concede defeat
When my heart skips a beat
When death greets
When the world seems to agree
When hope is what i plead
When love is all i could read
When you... are all i need
Since i've been posting too much personal stuff here..
It's time I should post something different and interesting this time..
Comments welcome~
My silent bird – you do not sing:
These ears are empty, like this heart.
You leave me dry of blood and tears,
As your gaze evokes my sorrow
Your silence echoes here,
An unheard music
Louder than any voice;
I feel you speak to me.
Fly away, little bird.
Why do you linger here?
A cage is not a home –
Is there naught else you hold dear?
Fly away, little bird,
Why do you linger still?
What is it that binds you
To these bars of unyielding steel?
My voiceless bird – do you cry?
Your eyes seem so empty.
Could your heart be breaking, just like mine?
When I look, all I see is myself.
Is this just my own whimsical reverie?
Delivered at 9:46 PM;
Friday, January 05, 2007
Haix, totally lost control of myself.
I'm feeling damn sad..
Am i being too much of a nice guy here?
Although it seems like im a terrible guy(to everyone?).. seriously speaking from my heart, sometimes i think i'm just too kind to let people take advantage of.
I mean.. haix.. just because i kept quiet, but that doesn't mean i don't feel a thing!
And i kept quiet because? i wanna compromise things..
Hey c'mon, i have feelings too. And i have a terrible bad past with my feelings.. so bad... that i metomorphosis totally..
It's just so hard being a mr nice guy pleasing every single person. i just try so hard to compromise. so hard. so hard.
Being taken advantage of my feelings, is seriously reminding me of my past...
Just because of being too kind, too good, too compromised..
And people are getting so pampered... take for granted and take advantage of it...
Yeah.....
....that's what someone used to take advantage of..
i treat her so good... in the end..
it's all the same... she left..
so now..
i'm treating you guys good...
would it be the same?
So in IS group, i know i'm incapable of being the leader.
So why bother selecting me to be one in the first place?
Hello? can someone answer this for me?
WHY BOTHER?
IF I CAN'T BE THE LEADER THEN DON'T LET ME BE ONE.
I'M JUST NOT UP TO IT. SORRY.
SO IF YOU GUYS FEEL THAT YOU CAN PUSH ALL THE WORK TO ME OR SAY, WHENEVER THERE IS A PROBLEM, THE LEADER SHOULD BE RESPONSIBLE, I'M REALLY SORRY, I CAN'T BE UP TO IT.
YES, I'M A BAD LEADER SO IF YOU GUYS FEEL THAT YOU CAN SCORE BETTER WHEN THE LEADER DOES EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THINGS, KNOWINGLY THAT I CAN'T.
THEN GO AHEAD AND PUSH THE BLAME ON ME AND YOU GUYS CAN HATE ME ALL YOU WANT.
THANKS.
I'LL CONTINUE TO KEEP QUIET. SO SAY ALL YOU WANT.
AS LONG AS YOU ALL ARE HAPPY ABOUT IT.
THEN EVERYTHING WOULD BE FINE. =)
who is to cheer me up... in such times of loneliness, sadness...?
who cares? as long as everyone around me is happy... does it matter if im happy or sad anymore? does it...... sigh...
the person that knows me best is gone now...
yes, crying, these tears flow... again..
i wished i could be in the rain and let it wash away my tears
good nites. hush crybaby.