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Saturday, December 02, 2006

Stayed back at the library to chill today.

There's a live gig in our school, just next to the soccer court.
and i've failed to register for this competition.
These bandmates are really getting on my nerves.
They are as if my dream destroyers.

today isn't really my day.

skipped bca lecture.
went to eat chicken rice at thomson road with everyone.
nothing special, even worse, i thought our sch's would be better.
so then we actually went different dog shop.
that actually made my day.
I LOVE DOGS!
they're so cuuuuuuute. ((:

Sleeeeeeeepyyyyy!! Acting SAD!! =( hahas! so cuuuuuuute! (:

Blur looked on his eyes..

Acting Shy!!! (:
i wished i can be lyk them. =(
gets so cosy inside, all day long slp and eat.
waiting for someone to buy them!
their eyes speak a thousand words.
and you can tell a difference of sad from happy.
i want a dog. =(
but don't think i have the time to look after one.

also when they die, i'm gonna be crying like hell!~

alright we just went around the different dog shops at thomson road.
ryan looking for grooming course. hahas. but a lil too ex i guess.
anyway something that really spoils my day.
so we were waiting for 52 back to sch.
then something that really caughts the attention of everyone!
literally WTF.
this guy was like hugging (say, his so-called 'gf'?)
and don't let her off.
and then?
it's like him trying to force kissing the girl.
and i would dare use this term 'force' because the girl was trying to shun away.
yeah, we wanted to help. her eyes was like calling for one.
but she didn't speak.
so neverthless we just hop on the bus.
it's not just me but my friends are pretty much buay song about it too.
in peculiar i'm a little sensitive, because of my past relationship.
my ex-gf was a victim, of well, rape. (but the rapist was not me lahs!)
i mean, who would be too happy when they heard about it?
it's not a matter of accepting.
but more like, a questioning.
it's like self-reproaching, have i known her earlier, i would have protected her?
anyway...
...the past is the past..
let's move on..

just another incident to end off the day
on my way home, on board of the bus i sat right at the back seats.
as if god is really making fun of me.
as though he has arranged couples after couples to sit right infront of me.
the sight of couples really evokes my sorrow.
they were playing, flirting, arms around, kissing, hugging.
right in my eyes; filled with envy?
sometimes really wondering, is this the arrangement of fate?
or god is literally teasing me?
are you trying to make me stronger?
or up there watching, laughing at me?
what do you want?
i hate you god.

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